Russell appeared behind her, his bow tie loosened, champagne forgotten in his hand. He had heard everything. His shoulders squared, but his voice stayed even.
“She’ll get exactly what she deserves,” he said.
Marlene smiled as though he had handed her a victory. I carried that sentence away like a bruise.
The months that followed were quieter than I had imagined. Russell remembered peppermint tea after difficult nights. He left the curtains slightly open because I could not sleep in complete darkness. One morning, when I pushed my toast away, he looked at me with a tenderness I did not know how to receive.
“You don’t have to earn your coffee,” he said.
I laughed, unsteady. I had spent my whole life earning every small kindness. Somewhere between the tea, the curtains, and a Tuesday in October when he reached for my hand at a red light, I stopped pretending. Maybe I had accepted because I was exhausted from drowning, but I stayed because I loved him.
After that, love began arriving in ordinary forms. Russell learned which bus stop I used before I admitted I still rode it whenever the driver was off. Once, he slipped cash into my coat, and I returned it to his desk with a note saying I wanted partnership, not rescue. He never did it again. Instead, he asked which groceries I liked, whether I missed my old neighborhood, whether the quiet inside his house scared me. Sometimes it did. Sometimes I missed the cracked window and noisy pipes because they had belonged to me.
The diagnosis arrived in November.
Six weeks. That was all we were given.
The hospital hallway smelled of antiseptic and lilies. Marlene intercepted me three doors away from his room.
“He’s resting,” she said. “He doesn’t need a scene.”
I could have pushed past her. I was his wife. But her hand was shaking, nurses were glancing over, and I thought of Russell hearing raised voices through the wall.
I sat in the hallway for three hours. When she left for coffee, I slipped into his room. Russell looked paler than the sheets.
He squeezed my hand.
